In God We Trust – Religions, Spirituality and the Truth.

I recently had a discussion on religion and the “all mighty God” with my psychiatrist and I asked him what his thoughts were on it.  His conclusion was pretty much the same as mine, it is simply a crutch to lean on when there is nothing else. That is where “faith” comes in. You can’t be a believer in “god” without faith. You need faith to believe “God” exists. But even with faith, does he really exist beyond our minds?

I do not believe we were created by a greater power, I do believe we evolved into what we are today through natural processes, though I’m not ignorant enough to reject the possibilities that our evolutionary transformations were not influenced from sources beyond our own planet. No, not aliens /sigh… Then again… Some people make you wonder.

I’m talking about contamination from the outer regions of our galaxy, or even beyond. The human race knows very little about our own planet, let alone what’s floating around our solar system. We can only speculate with what we have seen. Everyday we are making new discoveries and rewriting what was taught as fact in the past. We know very little about where we came from or even more so, why we’re actually here. Are we just another form of parasite to the planet we call earth, trying to ravage it for all we can? It sometimes feels that way. What comes next, I often ponder about that too… I have little “faith” in the big picture of our evolution. The human race will be it’s own demise. It’s hard to believe in “our father” when there’s so much hate amongst his children.

PS. Upon writing this entry, a strange thing happened.. I wear a necklace with a crucifix on it. I received this as a gift around 20 years ago from a very religious friend. I have never taken it off since receiving it. I wear this because it symbolizes a time when someone believed in me enough to go out of their way, not only to buy it, but also get it blessed by a priest. It meant a lot to me, it still does.

Crucifix fell off necklace.

Crucifix fell off necklace.

But, on writing this entry, it fell off. Not the necklace, just the crucifix, the necklace is still clasped, unbroken, the link on the crucifix itself is still intact…… I hate it when things play with my mind like that… was it a message?.  I’ve called to him many times, just to be ignored… Strange!…..


Cheers, Dazz.

Ode of Remembrance – For the Fallen, ANZAC Day and Day of Rememberance

Ode of Remembrance

~Lest We Forget~

With proud thanksgiving, a mother for her children,
England mourns for her dead across the sea.
Flesh of her flesh they were, spirit of her spirit,
Fallen in the cause of the free.

Solemn the drums thrill: Death august and royal,
Sings sorrow up into immortal spheres.
There is music in the midst of desolation,
And a glory that shines upon her tears.

They went with songs to the battle, they were young.
Straight of limb, true of eyes, steady and aglow.
They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted,
They fell with their faces to the foe.

They shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning,
We will remember them.

They mingle not with their laughing comrades again;
They sit no more at familiar tables at home;
They have no lot in our labour of the daytime;
They sleep beyond England’s foam.

But where our desires are and our hopes profound,
Felt as a well-spring that is hidden from sight,
To the innermost heart of their own land they are known,
As the stars are known to the night.

As the stars will be bright when we are dust,
Moving in marches upon the heavenly plain;
As the stars that are starry in the time of our darkness,
To the end, to the end, they remain.

Laurence Binyon


changing pace..

Wow, I can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve made an entry. I haven’t even been that busy. There have however  been a few changes since my last entry.

I decided to get off my backside and renewed my driver’s license just a couple of weeks ago. I actually got up the courage to go out and get the photo done!. Hey, you can laugh, but it wasn’t easy.  Though, it must be the worst photo I’ve had taken, well, one of the 1000s. lol. oh well, it’s done and that’s all that matters.. but wait, there’s more.

Power of Thought

Power of Thought

I ventured out even farther last week and purchased a 2nd hand car. It’s nothing flash but it’s the little bit of “freedom”  I’ve needed for some time now.. just to be able to get to places without having to go into the public so to speak. I know a lot of sufferers will understand that.

Even more so, my first adventure in the car over the weekend was to a nature reserve and I walked around for what seemed hours. It is something my soul had longed for a long time now. To hear the birds, the wind rustling through the treetops  to hear water trickling over the rocks along the creek bed, it’s so tranquil and good medicine for the soul.

I have to say, I have an outlook to the future now. I really don’t know what that future is, I really don’t know if I will ever get my confidence back. But I know this time a few years back, I simply did not want to exist. I think I owe some of that to my psychologist and being able to unload a lot of what has bothered me throughout my life.

I’ve often felt down on myself for simply letting situations bother me so much, I feel as though I “feel” too much at times, if that makes any sense. But, my psych has said many times, I have “a right to feel what I feel”, which has taken some of that self judgment off me. I have had a lot of traumatic situations throughout my childhood and adult life. I have a right to feel how I feel.. that’s a powerful statement in itself. Repeat it to yourself on a daily basis and you too will start believing in yourself a little more.


Cheers, Dazz.

WordPress Cyber Attack launched – WordPress blogs attacked across the Internet

There is currently a significant attack being launched at a large number of WordPress blogs across the Internet. The attacker is brute force attacking the WordPress administrative portals, using the username “admin” and trying thousands of passwords. It appears a botnet is being used to launch the attack and more than tens of thousands of unique IP addresses have been recorded attempting to hack WordPress installs.

Methods below which will help you secure your WordPress install:

Fix 1:
To see if your site is being targeted, there’s a great Activity Monitor plugin.

And if you are being targeted (you’ll see the failed login attempts), use the Limit Login Attempts plugin to prevent brute force attempts from gaining access to your site.

Fix 2:
If you are running a WordPress blog and want to ensure you are protected from this attack, you can sign up for CloudFlare’s free plan (Not available to users with SSL certificates) and the protection is automatic. CloudFlare will continue to monitor the details of the attack and publish details about what we learn.

Info provided by my host provider.


Cheers, Dazz.

Buying a used car for around 3k, Melbourne, Australia.

I thought I’d take the opportunity and mention I’m currently looking to buy a secondhand car in the Melbourne area Australia.

What I’m looking for is an 96-2000 model sedan, something like a fairmont or calais or similar, must have RWC and registered.

If you know anyone selling in the Melbourne area, feel free to contact me via my contact page with details and any links to photos of the car. I have the cash ready and waiting for the right car that comes along.


Cheers, Dazz.

Reflecting back – Where did it go wrong?

There has to be a point where things started going wrong. I often go into deep thought when reflecting back into my childhood, looking for answers. I had what would be considered a “normal upbringing” in my early childhood. I remember the family trips and gatherings at times of celebration. It’s a warm, cozy feeling when I journey back there in my mind.

Then there’s a blur, at around 8 years old I sensed the “family” environment a little colder, but I can’t seem to pinpoint the problem. Maybe I just could not see it with being a child. I know around that time my sister was born, a year later my brother was hit by a tram and was in hospital for a few months. I know that would have put a lot of stress on my parents, but where did it go wrong. We were a happy family,…. or so I thought.

I was recently informed that my “father” had several affairs whilst with my mother, before they divorced. I was angry at him for leaving Mum for another woman. To find this out, just makes me want to tell him he’s an arsehole. But, that I will never get the pleasure of doing. It frustrates me, to think I looked up to this man, I feel cheated.

Maybe I sensed things wrong in the family environment before things went wrong physically. I know I started to change just before my father walked out on the family. A lot was going on in a short period back then. It would be enough to make anyone shut down I guess. I feel like I had a before and after life, both completely different. Hey, I was even a cub scout from the age of 7-9… then to, crime in my teens. two life’s, one “tainted” soul.

Speaking of the word “Tainted”. My psychologist has mentioned that word a couple of times now when talking about me, long before he knew about my site. lol. I found it quite, … amusing. 🙂